AAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH

stress what stress?????? i am now officially stressed. we move out in 2 days and the only person that seems to care is me!!!!!!!!! there is enough washing to be done to keep a chinese laundry in business for a month, the shipping company are coming today and the pile for them just keeps growing!!!!!!! i cant eat i cant sleep and my smoking has increased ten fold! michael keeps finding homers to do, the kids social lives have taken on new meaning while i just sit smouldering away!!! oh anyone want a lilac fronted chest of drawers and matching entertainment unit oh and of course a 6 month old light beech tv and video cabinet??? free to good home as long as it can be removed within two days!!!!!! i have just realised that we have only two hours between each flight, shit now i am totally frantic, what if any of them are delayed???? we could be stranded in a foreign country!!!!! now i know that i MUST visit the doctor to get something before i explode! natalie help me please!!!!!!!

clock

hooray, natalie has posted a count down clock for me!!!! way hey!! now everytime anyone logs on they can see how long i have left in this country!!! its really stressful trying to get round everyone that you want to see before you leave. so little time so much to do!!

finally

well this is definately it. our flat is sold, my notice is in and the flights are booked! we leave aberdeen on wednesday the 5th of july, drive to heathrow and fly to perth on thursday the 6th of july. we will arrive on friday the 7th of july at 5pm. now all i have to do is get packed and visit the doctor for some valium and a shed load of nicotine patches!!!!! 20 bloody hours with no fags!!!! it will be a toss up as to whether michael and i kill each other or the kids!! this should be fun!!!! am off to the aberdeen highland games today, we go every year and as with every bloody year the weather is crap!!!! never mind last one to be enjoyed!!!!!

Perth here we come

Well this is it. We have had what my solicitor calls a 'clean' offer on the flat which we have accepted. It will be all legally binding come 5pm tomorrow. We will be homeless on the 30th of June so I guess that means that we will be moving to Australia the 1st week of July. Its all a bit scary, exciting and sad all at the same time. We will of course miss our friends and family heaps. I wish that I had magic powers so that I could just wiggle my nose and flit back and forth between oz and the UK whenever I wanted. Of course this is what Michael and I want, the chance to change our life and improve the opportunities for our children. It is a huge thing for us, neither of us have ever lived far away from our families but as everyone keeps telling me, its the right thing to do. It really hit home when I phoned my gramma to tell her things were finally coming together she said that she wanted me to visit before I left and she knew it was the right thing to do but she knows that once we go I will never see her again. shes 87 and failing year by year, it really hit home that there will be people who I will probably never see again and this makes me sad. But we cant live our lives wondering what if, rather feel remorse than regret. We have been talking about this for nearly 20 years and would rather try and fail than sit here in another 20 years wishing that we had done it.

so nat be prepared for me to be a pain in the ass since i wont know anyone else but you and davo! i am sure that we will not regret this decision and that this is the 1st chapter of the rest of our lives!!!